Sad to say back then she wasn't attracted to me, but i have 'targeted' her without her noticing, haha. I just kana "sock' by her. She looked so cute and outgoing. But at that time , she was going very closely with one of my good friends. Those who are in the same class as us would probably know who im referring to. He was one of the guys who is very smart, good-looking and popular among girls . Being just an average Joe then , i held back and so i did not express anything to her. Seeing her happy is enough for me..
After O'level and during poly days, we are very far apart. She was busy with her own studies and relationships. And knowing she was in good hands, i felt happy for her. We still hang out occasionally and are very good friends then. ( at that time she still didn't know i like her)
And so time flies.. I went for my NS and she started working/part time U. It was during this period i knew she was very hurt by someone. I felt so sad and angry because she don't deserve to be treated like that. But at that time, what i can do is to lend a listening ear and being a companion be it going out for movies or ktv. Thanks to Xiuwen and her personal blog, i get to know how dear is doing.
We started to hang out more frequent during my last few months in army and when i started my working life . Thanks to dear for always taking the initiative to ask me out. But whenever this happens, i was so excited. My heart was always racing whenever i saw her, honestly.. I even tried rollerblading because of her. I would wake up early in the morning to go out with her. Yes, i know i am a champion sleeper back then. But somehow, somewhat i got the energy . Just because i can get to see her.
We get to know each other better and became closer as time passes. We hang out more frequent and started to sms each other. I felt at ease and comfortable with her. We do not need to specially put a front or hide our flaws. It was just enjoyable.
Yes. it has been like 9,..10 years. But still i did not express my feelings for her. Because i felt I'm not good enough for her.
But it was until 2007, i decided to bare my heart. So after a few running here and there, i finally held her hand on 10.10.2007, which is our 10years knowing each other. I know i will never forget that day. I was like.. WOOHOO! inside me. :) I finally can have the chance to care and love someone i have been waiting for years. I know i will treasure and love this girl very much.
During this period, we learnt more of each other and i love her even more. We had happy moments and we do quarrel at times. But we know we still love each other. I thank dear too for her understanding and encouragement during my bad times.
I know deep inside me that she is the one for me. And although i have not officially 'ask' for her 'approval', we are already making plans for our next stage in life. I will not reveal when i will 'ask for approval'. haha! I want to plan and make it a memorable one. Because to me ,she is too precious for me to settle for just a normal 'asking for approval'. ;)
I'm sorry that the above is just a summarize version of our story as I'm not a very 'wordy' person compared to dear , and most important....my English is 'half-boiled' ;p
Ok. In fact, the purpose of this Blog is to allow us to archive the bits and pieces of our preparation for the next stage of our lives. I hope we can jot down every thing we could, so when our big day comes, this blog will be a compiled virtual diary for us.
I know it is no easy task and we will have to face a lot of unseen situations ahead. But i believe we can do it.
Dear, let's jiayou!
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